Friday, June 12, 2009

How are we going to do this?

My husband and I are emergency room techs in a pediatric hospital. John works nights and I work days. We both want to continue on in our education ASAP (we want to become Rn's). Well we also have a six week old infant. We knew when we decided to start school back up it would be a challenge but this morning after seriously giving it thought as to how we both can go back to school at the same time, it seems impossible. We both realized how hard it would be even if only one of us starts school. We decided that John would go first and then he had such a sad look on his face..... so I asked him what was bothering him and he said " I hate that I'm going to miss out on the next three years of my daughter's life". I told him it would be okay, It would work out everything always does.I told him we would just have to make family time a priority. He was also worried about me and how I would be able to handle doing things on my own . Now, I'm a home body but I do need to get out and do something every once and a while. John on the other hand... could stay at home forever and be totally cool with it. Not me I get stir crazy easily. I told him yeah... It would difficult but I would deal with it "I have my two best friends that live down the road and I would just go over and hang out them when I felt the sudden to "get out". Actually the hardest part for me will be not spending as much time with him. I can't help it, I love him and when you love people it's only natural to want to spend time with them. So .....what are we going to do? How are we going to do this? It's not that we don't have an awesome support system, everyone wants to see us succeed, We also love our friends and would like for them to stay our friends so we can't always ask them to watch our daughter while we go to school it's not right and we wouldn't dream of it. It's not that we don't want to pay for childcare. We just want to leave her with people that we trust to love her as much as we do. Not only that...that is a lot of time away from Harper, not to mention the time needed for studying. So I guess the result will end up being I will stay at home with Harper on my days off and basically be a single mom while John is going to school. I will try online classes as much as possible.... maybe.
We will just take one day at a time and see what God lays out in front of us on our journey with him. We trust God and believe he has the best of intentions for us and wants us to live a joyful life. God doesn't give us more than we can handle. We both believe God will make a way for what he wants for our lives, and..... Ultimately what he wants is all that matters.

So.... God show us your will for our lives and set everything in motion to walk it out. We love you and trust you .

1 comment:

  1. awww! good for you for having the right attitude!

    ...and remember auntie MayMay will babysit ANY time!!

    don't know if i have mentioned this before but I am soooo glad you moved down the street! hooray! i heart you!

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